March302012

Struggle for Struggle

There’s no tragedy, no emotion,

I’m floating on a vessle in a calm blue ocean,

But where’s that feeling, where’s that heart,

From which the poems and love songs start,

Where’s the proof of love and life?

Where’s the heartfelt bitter strife?

I’m stuck in a mild manered middle,

Happiness flowing steady,

But what I seek is the heights and depths,

For termoil - I am ready.

To brave the storm and face the mist,

To walk new paths and leave those missed.

I do not seek an average life.

       ~Peter T.B~

January22012

A Troublesome Trinity - Part 3 - The End

Cracked.
Disjointed.

An emptiness of the heart, as though
all feeling has melted away.

Lost.
Disappointed.

Dreams of what could have been,
lying on the floor.
Broken, jagged, porcelain points,
behind a now-locked door.

A bittersweet pond forms in a corner of my mind,
I’m a character from a tragedy book,
in my search for someone one of a kind,
I guess the bait led to the hook.

And now I walk on this endless plain,
seeking routes to doge the pain,
though I know it’s all in vain,
only in time will I once more be sane.

For now I shall stand my ground.
Take my pound-ing.

I will not drown in sorrow,
I will not suffocate in regret,
Although these afflictions are upon me,
to my core they will not get.

I know I’ll experience pain,
I know I’ll experience loss,
but I know that they will pass,
they shall not be my boss.

My thoughts are still unclear,
my thoughts are still a mess,
but I’ll turn out fine in the end.
I guess.

           ~Peter T.B.~

January12012

A Troublesome Trinity - Part 2 - The Romance

Oh you. You know who I’m talking to,
you saw me though - everything.
For years we’ve been getting closer
and closer until WHAM!
Planets collide,
you’re on my side.
My magical, high momentum meteorite of love.
Meeting me in the middle of moss and
mangled roots - that contact point
where sparks flew, and I joined them,
flying to the outer reaches of the atmosphere,
not caring about the distance to the ground
because I was with you my dear,
and we would cover it together.

How often is it that something like that occurs?
I’m no astrologer, but I’ll bet it’s not a common comet.
Just like you - not all that common.
A rare gem, hidden in the depths of the earth
with properties no scientist could figure out.
A shining ray of light and beauty, while also having
that complex molecular structure, the inner workings that
none can fully understand.

In writing, I seem to have strayed. So I’ll keep to the core.
You. You. You.
Your hair of gold, glimmering like a Goddess,
a gentle curl, crafted out by grace itself over millenia,
each strand deserving it’s own epic.
The thickness, giving me something firm to hold on to,
telling me, “Boy, you’re not dreaming any more.”
Score!
And what’s more, your smile - oh I would walk the long mile
to see that - lifting the clouds and dark thoughts that try to
invade the world away. Replacing them with joy;
pure, honest happiness that lives to see
the broken fixed,
the hungry fed
and the lost found.

But that’s skipping ahead of the rest of your head!

The diamonds you stole, and placed as
the windows to your soul
shine with such brilliance,
covering the bad things that they have seen
with innocent hope and bright ideas
that threaten to outshine the sun.

Your delicate nose, oh heaven knows that
when I think of it, all I can see is yours
touching mine - connecting us - like two otters
caught in a storm, knowing that if each
holds on to the other, all will be well
when the gods calm the swell.

In each of these words is unabashed truth,
I hope you don’t think me uncouth,
My Ruth.

           ~Peter T.B.~

7PM

A Troublesome Trinity - Part 1 - The Question

We’re best friends, and that’s amazing
but there’s something more to this scene than meets the eye
or the heart or the mind,
an ambiguous meeting of two persons,
each the other’s completing and competing half.

The words that describe you in my mind:
“Both a blessing and a curse”
What’s worse is the not knowing, in-between.
I’m sat in the middle of hope and doubt,
something I could do without,
this purgatory of emotion.

At times you play the greater part,
next second almost break my heart - but never truly,
it’s not true until it’s told by you.

The risk of failure seems too high,
rather sit half-on than fall and die.
But that’s no life to live at all.

So here I stand and say, one last time,
face to face this time,
no faltering, no change of pace,
no phone to die removing a reply,
no time to leave and ponder till
the question fades into a dark recess of the mind.

Time now for an answer,
fast from the heart,
quick off the start.


Is our love as more than friends?

Do you want to be with me?

Answer now my dear I plea,
yes or no. Both free me.

           ~Peter T.B.~

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