April162013

smi1ingwbu:

Maybe this is what the Mayans predicted. Not an asteroid, or a solar flare, but the end of what we are. We’re no longer cherish life, or other people, even the earth or the animals and resources put on it. War, genocide, abuse, senseless mass murder, animal cruelty, gluttony, greed, waste and lust. Look around you, the end of the world is already here. 

No. People still cherish life, and in our modern era, life has an overwhelming strength over death most of the time. We’re no longer living and dealing with death as a common occurance. (Most of us.)
That’s why these things shock us so much - because they’re few and far between.
The world is slowly marching forward to a glorious future, and you’re never going to change my mind on that.

(Source: sinqs, via thehatterschild)

November222012
When a person can’t cry, that person is weak.
How fucking dare anything say that. Ever.
There are so many things in the world that can cause people pain, and sadness, and trauma. So many things that can bring a person to tears.
But some people can’t cry.For some people, they’re in a situation where they don’t have a safe space to cry in, and they must be strong and keep it in until they find one, less they risk looking pathetic and making their situation worse.For some people, they’re in a situation where things are bad, and they have people who are looking to them to find hope, to support them and keep them strong, the other people cry sometimes, but they can stop their tears when the person comes and comforts them, and they feel better because that person doesn’t cry, so it can’t be a doomed situation. If that person cried, everyone who is looking to them for support becomes crushed. It’s seen as game over.For some people, they have been so damaged and hurt over and over and over that the tears have just run out. There is no point in crying anymore. Nothing changes. Yet they keep going, even though they have no tears left to give.
You dare call any of those people weak, and I will call you swine. Those people have to be SO FUCKING STRONG to keep going on when they are unable to do what we view as such a strong factor of being human.
If a person can’t cry, you cry for them, and you keep trying and hoping that one day they won’t have to be strong anymore, and they’ll be able to cry freely again. And on that day you will know a soul has been redeemed.
  • When a person can’t cry, that person is weak.

How fucking dare anything say that. Ever.

There are so many things in the world that can cause people pain, and sadness, and trauma. So many things that can bring a person to tears.

But some people can’t cry.
For some people, they’re in a situation where they don’t have a safe space to cry in, and they must be strong and keep it in until they find one, less they risk looking pathetic and making their situation worse.
For some people, they’re in a situation where things are bad, and they have people who are looking to them to find hope, to support them and keep them strong, the other people cry sometimes, but they can stop their tears when the person comes and comforts them, and they feel better because that person doesn’t cry, so it can’t be a doomed situation. If that person cried, everyone who is looking to them for support becomes crushed. It’s seen as game over.
For some people, they have been so damaged and hurt over and over and over that the tears have just run out. There is no point in crying anymore. Nothing changes. Yet they keep going, even though they have no tears left to give.

You dare call any of those people weak, and I will call you swine. Those people have to be SO FUCKING STRONG to keep going on when they are unable to do what we view as such a strong factor of being human.

If a person can’t cry, you cry for them, and you keep trying and hoping that one day they won’t have to be strong anymore, and they’ll be able to cry freely again. And on that day you will know a soul has been redeemed.

(via duckduckdress)

January12012

A Troublesome Trinity - Part 2 - The Romance

Oh you. You know who I’m talking to,
you saw me though - everything.
For years we’ve been getting closer
and closer until WHAM!
Planets collide,
you’re on my side.
My magical, high momentum meteorite of love.
Meeting me in the middle of moss and
mangled roots - that contact point
where sparks flew, and I joined them,
flying to the outer reaches of the atmosphere,
not caring about the distance to the ground
because I was with you my dear,
and we would cover it together.

How often is it that something like that occurs?
I’m no astrologer, but I’ll bet it’s not a common comet.
Just like you - not all that common.
A rare gem, hidden in the depths of the earth
with properties no scientist could figure out.
A shining ray of light and beauty, while also having
that complex molecular structure, the inner workings that
none can fully understand.

In writing, I seem to have strayed. So I’ll keep to the core.
You. You. You.
Your hair of gold, glimmering like a Goddess,
a gentle curl, crafted out by grace itself over millenia,
each strand deserving it’s own epic.
The thickness, giving me something firm to hold on to,
telling me, “Boy, you’re not dreaming any more.”
Score!
And what’s more, your smile - oh I would walk the long mile
to see that - lifting the clouds and dark thoughts that try to
invade the world away. Replacing them with joy;
pure, honest happiness that lives to see
the broken fixed,
the hungry fed
and the lost found.

But that’s skipping ahead of the rest of your head!

The diamonds you stole, and placed as
the windows to your soul
shine with such brilliance,
covering the bad things that they have seen
with innocent hope and bright ideas
that threaten to outshine the sun.

Your delicate nose, oh heaven knows that
when I think of it, all I can see is yours
touching mine - connecting us - like two otters
caught in a storm, knowing that if each
holds on to the other, all will be well
when the gods calm the swell.

In each of these words is unabashed truth,
I hope you don’t think me uncouth,
My Ruth.

           ~Peter T.B.~

7PM

A Troublesome Trinity - Part 1 - The Question

We’re best friends, and that’s amazing
but there’s something more to this scene than meets the eye
or the heart or the mind,
an ambiguous meeting of two persons,
each the other’s completing and competing half.

The words that describe you in my mind:
“Both a blessing and a curse”
What’s worse is the not knowing, in-between.
I’m sat in the middle of hope and doubt,
something I could do without,
this purgatory of emotion.

At times you play the greater part,
next second almost break my heart - but never truly,
it’s not true until it’s told by you.

The risk of failure seems too high,
rather sit half-on than fall and die.
But that’s no life to live at all.

So here I stand and say, one last time,
face to face this time,
no faltering, no change of pace,
no phone to die removing a reply,
no time to leave and ponder till
the question fades into a dark recess of the mind.

Time now for an answer,
fast from the heart,
quick off the start.


Is our love as more than friends?

Do you want to be with me?

Answer now my dear I plea,
yes or no. Both free me.

           ~Peter T.B.~

December292011

Who am I?

Who am I? It’s a good question. A question that we all have to ask ourselves, what are our values? Who are our friends? Where do we belong? What shall I do?
It all comes down to, Who Am I?

I’ll give you the basics first. I may as well be open here, because that’s the route to trust, and if anything I say here is going to affect anyone, trust with the writer is needed. My name is Peter. I am currently 17 years old, and in my final year of A-levels, Biology, English and Psychology. (Oh, and I did AS Chemistry). I was born in and live in London, child of two loving parents who have raised me well, and given me a little sister. I am a Christian, and I have had religious experiences that can leave me in no doubt as to the existence and power of God. I am by ‘nature’, an introvert, though I am extroverted often by choice.

I love music, I own a bass guitar - which I love very muchly, a harmonica - which is brilliant at waking people in tents up in the morning, and I used to have a saxophone when I took lessons with the school, but I found the lessons far to dreary and not to my liking, so I ended them, however the saxophone did belong to the school, so they took it back. I’ve never stopped wanting one since.

I’m a gamer. A PROPER gamer, with a PC. I do own a 360, but I haven’t used it in MONTHS. I dwell on the internet, play games, create things, find out things. I love the computer and the internet, and it breaks my heart to see no PC section in HMV or Game nowadays.

I’m a scout. I started as soon as I could, as a Beaver, then moved up to Cubs, where I became a seconder (That’s one below a sixer, which is basically the patrol leader for those not in the know). Then I moved up to scouts, where I became a Patrol Leader, and eventually Senior Patrol Leader. I adore scouting, especially when I had a superb South African Ex-Army man as my Scout Leader. He taught me discipline, got me working on my endurance, strength etc. And taught us everything we needed to know about survival. His lessons will always stick with me. I was also a Young Leader for a while this year, helping run the group, which was again brilliant.

Till next time!

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